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Your Sherpa Will Abandon You And Leave You For Dead

by Wildflowers of the Mojave

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1.
the world is not ours to love so treat her as a child, don't fuck her up for you, a thousand miles to spend i know it's hard to believe that your death is not the end
2.
another fatal shooting down this road, come one and all to see who's the killer, who'd he kill? just hope he doesn't come for me either way i say, who cares? i only came to stir the heat of this here bonfire with my bic and gasoline after john doe's swept away and all his guts are in the trash we'll go home with empty hands until we warm them for the next attack and sharpen up our pitchforks lined with the blood from yesterday, we'll send some neo-nazis hopeless on the way and i'm like "holy mountain, hear us shoutin' oh my god i hope that i'ma saved but most of all i hope that you'll explain" why's this man here bein' spit at? why's that woman being raped? they've done nothing to deserve it, (guess that's why they get it all the same) the innocent vermilions in the stream of life perceived among the grain are always floorboards in the rain well the more i think i understand, the less i really know that's the pain of being human, still i'm glad my thumbs oppose so that i can push more buttons and take pictures of my flesh exposed and send them out to other people's phones then i'm like "holy mountain, hear us drownin' oh my god i hope that i'ma saved but most of all i hope i get my raise" oh, it seems humanity's uncurable disease is just what keep us goin' on, and if you stiff yourself undoubtedly some devil's gonna take those keys and run oh hun, i guess when all is said and done, we're all just hopes and dreams a' wedded to the sun well the more i think about these facts, the more i wanna cry when every good and poor decision fits the same inside a needle's eye, it almost seems like i could turn the pages back, white-out in hand, and change all of these hadn'ts into hads... well thank my stars i made it this far to illuminate at last throw confetti from your rooftops, turn your problems into plans i don't wanna die, don't have the time, there's still too many days to find another way this species could advance and i'm like "holy mountain, you gonna teach me anything? cause' oh my god i hope that i'ma saved but most of all i hope that you'll explain"
3.
Dear Jesus 05:46
dear jesus christ: if you were right then i'm sorry for this but it seems i can't exist without contesting you... as you know for me the same is true i have no right to tell you what i think is right at all compared to you i'm small, time knows i'm going to lose but why can't we just both agree that it's not about doing what you love but how it lives? that it's not about giving what you got but how it gives? why can't we just both i think i'm gonna carry my own damn cross by the side of the road with my fears and depraved convictions, and i will nail my own sick thoughts into my skin, i will carve my name in stone on the mountain alone with my prayers and my grievances, and i will hang my head up high beside your throne blessed star, i know i fell so far, but i never meant to hurt you darling, you walked in and i saw you grin so i followed you yes i followed... oh holy blessed, i have no soul just the heart in my chest pumping blood and regret and it's no place for you dear... why do you let me live at all? why don't you throw me in a whale and count the days until i scream out for help? why don't you kill me now before i give my heart away to somebody else? we are hardened to start and then unraveled by the hands of knowledge... and hardened again but you know i'm still just gonna carry my own damn cross by the side of the road with my fears and depraved convictions, i'm gonna nail my own sick thoughts into my skin, i will carve my name in stone on the mountain alone with my prayers and my grievances, and i will bind my mother's son beside the altar blessed star, i know i fell so far, but i never meant to hurt you darling, you walked in and i saw you grin so i followed you... yes i followed you... well wouldn't it be nice to find one hundred seven billion happy faces in the sky and we could dance and sing forever with these spirits in our eyes? but i just don't believe it any more than i believe in lobsters on my ceiling wearing purple caps and baking cupcakes with darjeeling i'm so sorry g, i just don't know what i've been saying lately but someday i pray that i sing more pious songs about you, really hope that i was wrong and i can finally say to you that you were fine (i was just so out of line) yeah you were fine (i was just so out of line) yeah you were fine (i was just so out of line and afraid... yeah i was afraid. . . y e a h i was afraid of you)
4.
My Soul 04:38
you make me feel like i'm a jewel but you are my god, i am your tool and i've always known that you saved me i love you farther than the eyes can see and when it's cold you hold me tight and when it's dark you shine the light but you scare me when you're not here you turn my world into a fantasy you make me feel like i'm on fire but you told me i would never die...
5.
i was fishing for my diamond ring when i found you instead just a stranger from a foreign spring before the zombies broke in you took my hand and you drove me to the right of passage but when i closed my eyes you just shook my hand and walked away and i awoke from a sleepless casket to the sound of gunfire down below on the rio grande i saw people floating by now i recalled revelations of a thousand countries but in the dying dream i could only hear you sweetly sigh now there were so many scared ugly people hiding in the railyards, so many scared ugly people running away, so many scared ugly people mailing them postcards, but me i just wanted to rest in peace that day i resigned to my feral state, where i ate the scales off of snakeskin that was when i found the city gate, and the lock was broken for a second there i swear i was on some grand vacation but when i found your place i was greeted by a pair of holes i screamed your name from the old gazebo to some flies of town square i ran down to the stream that night and i saw you dancing there you told me i did great, you said nice job, congratulations but when i jumped to your embrace all i felt were your rushing waves and i admit so many times i wanted to bite you and i admit so many times i cried and i admit for so long i've been trying to find you but only now i've been wondering why have you ever found peace of mind from a rock in motion? have you ever felt an honest breath from a fire approaching? i tried to fly upstream but the current's always flyin' faster so when i changed my wing i was captain of the breathing sea i'll roll down this rio grande until i find mine ocean i know it's hard, so hard to judge, but i know i'm getting close you see, yesterday i found a seashell in the river basin and from its spirally depths i could almost hear my diamond ring so so long to all you scared ugly people so long to mr. and mrs. i wanna quit and rot away so long to everyone who thinks that they're a nomad and say hello to mr. going to walk this rain
6.
home, why do you call it home? last i checked, all i found was flesh and bone, your bike rack in the back by the kitchen stove where do you think you are? where do you think you are? where do you think you are no place like home, no place, baby mirth and fear, where can i meet these faces? last i checked, i found clouds in cloudy spaces, water in the fields, and magma in vases where do you think you are? where do you think you are? where do you think you are no place like home, no place, sometimes it seems like you're more than a melody, baby... what's a baby? haven't you heard? i guess words don't mean much to me
7.
tell me once again... you're not afraid of anything? oh tell me once again... you're not afraid of anything? oh tell me once again... you're not afraid of anything? 'cause i'd be afraid if i'd seen everything now there are lovehills in versailles but the car thieves lurk on gold street yeah there are lovehills in versailles but the car thieves lurk on gold street yeah there are lovehills under parasites and car thieves in cars drive but you're not afraid of anything i suppose i'd be the same if i'd seen everything i'd give it all away just to hide like you like i know you've been doin' pretending it's ok, without a clue you're not revealing... i'd give it all away but i'd still lose so you're going solo you got nothin' to hide you ain't splittin' no fences here but you don't have to try yeah you're going solo you got time to spend but this ain't no vacation, there's no end, there's no end i can see the light... could someone close the curtains please? i can see the hillside... could somebody close the curtains please? i can see the light... you vultures of the night... could somebody close the curtains please? 'cause i think i'm going blind, restrain me i'd smash a thousand mirrors, i'd break my face just to know it all and still have a fate like an eye in the sky on a paper plane i'm not repeating i'd give it all away and i'd take a break "so you're going solo you got nothin' to hide you ain't splittin' no fences here but you don't have to try yeah you're going solo you got time to spend but this ain't no vacation, there's no end, there's no end" said the preacher to the centaur "i do believe it's time, climb aboard my chariot, we'll take back the sky" nerf god, don't tell me it's over nerf god, don't tell me we're through nerf god, buy me a coca cola nerf god, i know i can do
8.
Your Sherpa 06:39
9.
Walkthrough 08:30
stop take a walk, and listen to the chime listen to the edge of the night don't be alarmed, there's nothing here to harm you save for the arms behind you step towards the night, i will follow you there keeping your string wrapped around your finger if you've forgotten where you are, remember where you started the rest is frozen solid and as tempting as it seems, don't tangle in the dreams they'll always be behind you you, you were kind when i needed to be step toward the arms of angels if you ever lose your string, don't cry it's meant to be wait before the gleam, and i will find i will find i will find i will find i will find i will find there you are
10.
well hot shot roller from winnipeg, tobago forget about your present, the past just wants to tango, and the future doesn't care much about anything at all well i hear you're in a space where two spaces condemn you forget about your problems, 'cause papa will resurrect you there's a PARTY in GUYANA, and everyone's invited, especially you but just 'cause i said something, don't mean it's true if everybody was you, what would you do? just 'cause i said something, don't mean it's me if everybody could see that, what would you believe? step outside to the party on the streets, they're throwing con-fu-fu-fu-fu-fetti, they're staining them sheets, and there's MILK and HONEY, flowin' above me, c'mon check it out girl you know it's just amazing would you tell me what you want? tell me what you need? tell me how i can get it 'cause you know i will retrieve because i LOVE you we all LOVE you everybody LOVEs you but just 'cause i said something, don't mean it's true if everybody was you, what would you do? just 'cause i said something, don't mean it's me if everybody could see that, what would you believe? light my world up, 'cause all i wanna do is shine matthias, all i wanna do is keep on shinin'
11.
johnny saw a chicken today crossing the road so he swerved out of its way, died in a car crash, i guess it's only meant to happen one way danny set a napkin on fire just to show the world his burning desire but now he doesn't have a face, save for his picture on the fireplace how are you so stupid? how are you so pitiful? well what i mean to say is we are spiders, weaving marvelous webs under bathroom tile and we are geysers spouting nonsense and clogging up the PRISM wires i met the devil today, he shook my hand, went on his way, slaughtered some kid... i bet i'll hear it on the news tomorrow man, how we'll kill him, chop up the bones, boil the rest to baby food, call it redemption, but i know in hell we'll sing in perfect unison uh oh ah huuah! o no no no no well what i meant to say was we are monsters, worse than zombies or whatever you read we are lovers, sweeter than christians and their puppies too my favorite joke is the human, doin' what he love to save or destroy the world (depending on opinion) well either way they make great shit and children man you're so ruthless, locking your doors in the name of some fate protection just let the cocks die maybe tonight we'll have some deep-fried chicken how are you so sick? how are you so beautiful? i'll let the tombstone say no survivors, no solutions, only mortal fumes and no conceptions, no conclusions, only time to choose
12.
My Cyst 09:28
today, i awoke with the strangest erection when momma stormed in goin' on 'bout the end of the world again, so i went to the loo so i could finish my business as i usually do and that's where i found you lying there without a clue now i believe in god for two the first time we ever met we were naked and oh so unafraid of it now we're just afraid, trapped in a thousand miles of shame but tonight, there is no fright, there are no gunshots or minefields to be haunting your life there are only bells waving my fair cyst farewell, farewell now i believe in god for two i know i owe this much to you

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recorded at foxhole mansion, the sweat shop, & sweet mimi's place
drums recorded/engineered at duke city sound, adel vocals recorded at adel's house, pianos recorded at rio grande presbyterian
all music/words/production by s. "faith" roberts
cover art by calvary fisher

S. "FAITH" ROBERTS- vocals, guitar, harmonica, piano, synths, theremini, violin (9), ukulele, banjo (5)
AIDAN HENDRICKSON - singing saw, singing pans, bones, magic shaker, engineering
MATT KLETECKA - bass (2-3,5,8-11), guitar (5), vocals (9)
ANDY CARSON BROWN - drums (1-3,5), vocals (3,10-11)
JORDAN HERRON - flute
ELLERY WEUST - trombone
CHIARA BROKAW - vocals (1-3,9-10)
ADEL BENGO - vocals (4,6,12)
ANDY HERMAN - drums (4,7,9-11)
CODY LUTZ - banjo (2)
PATRICK GOFF - sax
CALVARY FISHER - mandolin & screaming
KAYLA MATTEUCCI - piano (7)
DAVID JIO - additional production (8)
LILLIAN DEITERMAN - sitar
INSUN BLEMEL - bass (9)
RACHEL BURDOFF - woodland spirit calls (8)
DYLAN HENDRICKSON - trumpet (3)
ARMIN BOROUJERDI - mouth harp
JONATHAN ANDERSON - drum engineering

thanks shirley madrid, gary herron, robby herron,
sharon himmelstein, bruce hendrickson, kerry pine,
olivia stenholm, jake killay, kyler christie & all em doghouse folk,
xazziel martinez, tarynn di’nnovati, elias mcentire,
philippa-lois amoa, ian sandlin, daniel juarez, fabiha sabin,
etienne rouleau, & momma

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released May 31, 2017

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John King Cave is the musical, poetic, and artistic vessel of Paul Waxler-Fahey, a folk artist currently residing in Albuquerque, New Mexico. The name recalls the story of John the apostle in the Cave of Patmos receiving the revelation of Christ the King. ... more

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